I'm sorry, Helios-san. [That's it, that's all Usagi can really manage after the loss of Chibiusa yet again. She'll be alright, because she's rather used to Chibiusa leaving thanks to her frequent comings and goings back home, but she still cries, regardless.]
[Even when it's just letters, his words have a quiet, soft feeling to them.
Helios had known when he could no longer feel her pure light, could reach her through their own special connection. Even though he had always known something like this could happen, that doesn't stop the sudden cold emptiness, a void where once was a warm, outstretched hand. He'll always treasure the moments he had with her, but...
...But now isn't the time for his own sorrows. He knows Usagi must also be suffering, so not long after the first message, another passes through.]
[It's short, simple, Usagi isn't in much of a mood to wax poetically in her mind. She's in no real mood for anything that has to do with talking, honestly.]
[As he thought. He won't say anything more, though she may feel a wave of quiet warmth before he closes the connection. He had been outside, so it doesn't take too long for him to return indoors and make his way to her room.
Really... He had been afraid to enter it, and even now his hand hesitates. But then he slowly opens the door to peer inside.]
[Usagi is sitting on the bed. There is so much pink in the room, not so much so as to be overbearing, but enough that it's clear a little girl had called this room home. Usagi has one of the stuffed rabbits Chibiusa owned in her lap. She sniffs softly and lifts her head, her eyes are red and she offers a smile to Helios.]
Helios... hi. [She sniffles again and wipes her eyes.] Sorry, I'm... I should have met you downstairs.
No, it's all right. [He just gives her a warm smile, if also a bit sad. He's been here a couple of times, so he recognizes most everything, but... The most important piece is missing.
Treading with care, Helios makes his way over to Usagi and sits on the edge of the bed beside her.]
No matter... how many times she leaves, here or back home, it's never easy. She's... she's such a bright and vibrant light, so when she's gone... the world becomes just a tiny bit darker.
She really does have a beautiful light, doesn't she? One that could pierce through any darkness. [Like the one he had been trapped in.
At first he had intended to just be there as quiet support, but... In the end, he can't help but slowly reach out to take her hand into his.]
But even though this is difficult, just know that you will see her again. And just like how the pain of her leaving will never be easy, the joy of your reunion will be even greater than the last.
So it's okay to cry and grieve, for that is another way of expressing your love.
[Her hand immediately curls around his and they're shaking ever so slightly. She swallows and nods. She loves Chibiusa in a way she cannot love anyone else, and she knows, once she actually has the little rabbit, she will adore her in a way she's never loved anyone, more than the girls, more than the earth, more than Mamoru. A mother's love is so vastly different than anything else, and while she's gotten some small taste of it, it isn't quite all there.
But she grips him with one hand and the stuffed rabbit with the other.]
I've been crying for a while. [It hurts, yes, but this hurt is easier because it's something she's a little bit used to.] But you know, that means you can cry as well, if you need.
[At that, his expression falls a bit, the soft smile he wears a little sad.]
Thank you... But I'll be all right. This is a fate I've long known would happen. I'm just happy to be able to spend a little more time with her.
[He lowers his head and closes his eyes, but the grip around her fingers tightens just a fraction, the warm sunlight that often follows him gone and clouded over.]
[She leaned over and pressed a gentle kiss to his temple. He was not the prince of earth she longed for, and she was not the moon maiden he wished for.]
But hopefully, when we both go back, you will get to spend as much time with her as you both want.
[His eyes widen a bit when Usagi kisses his temple, and he can't help but sit up a little in surprise. There's a small flush, but also a wistful smile. No, they are not the one they wish, but they are here and can support one another.]
Yes... I would like that very much. [He is willing to wait for near a millennia, for what is one more in his already long life? But this time will be a more difficult, he knows, even if he may be able to catch glimpses from afar.]
And you will be able to continue your life not only with Chibiusa, but with the prince as well.
Not just Mamo-chan, I want to live together with everyone, Helios-kun, that was my wish when I spoke to Guardian Cosmos, and it remains my wish now. I wish I could live with all of you and enjoy the peace we've all fought so hard to get for our Earth.
It's the most important wish in my heart. You know, that's how I realized I was under the curse from Nehellenia, in my dream, she had Mamoru say that his wish was that we'd always be together, just him and me, without any worries or cares.
But that was never my true wish. And I know that that isn't Mamoru's either.
[She closed her eyes and leaned back a bit.] Both our greatest wish is to protect the earth, together, with everyone.
[There's a light chuckle as Usagi recounts the story, the room warming a bit at her calling the Earth Prince "adorable."]
You both were. [A soft smile.] Forgive me, but I saw glimpses of that dream since I had used my powers to bring you to Elysion. [To save them from the curse as best he could.]
Of course. I would do all that I could to help all of you in whatever way I could.
[Even if it meant sacrificing himself to use those powers.]
And now I want to do the same for you here. [He covers Usagi's hand with his other, holding them close.] Miss Usagi... I know we haven't known each other for long, and you have the other girls to help you as well. But if there's anything I can do to help ease the pain in your heart, please let me know.
[Usagi minorly panicked when he grabbed both her hands if only because it made her feel so exposed and she was trying her best to be strong for Helios when he had lost someone he loved. She let out a breath and tried to let the tension in her shoulders ease. She wanted to be strong for Helios, yet here he was being strong for her.]
[He's a little surprised when she reaches out to push his hair back...and then then scrunches his nose a bit at the tap, as well as to her words. He's never thought about his looks before, but ever since coming here he's become a little more self-conscious. A certain young maiden has a large part in it, but given how young her own appearance is, there's been no real thought in having his own appearance be older. ...But maybe...he should consider...at least for the future.......
[There's a soft, sad smile as he sits back a bit, recalling the events.]
No, I was not spared. When Saturn's Glaive dropped, everything—including the Earth, the Golden Kingdom, Elysion—was reset. However, I was reborn fairly early on to continue my role in protecting Elysion, and my memories were reborn with me. So I remember everything from before everything happened.
[She bowed her head and nodded, reaching out and gripping his hand. So not even he was spared. She knew there were so many innocent lives that had been lost, never to be reborn like her and the others.
She took a deep breath.]
I remember... more and more every year, every... [She made an idle, sweeping gesture.]
I'm sorry if I don't remember meeting you before then, Helios, though I'm not sure if I did. I know I met Kunzite before.
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I'm sorry, Helios-san. [That's it, that's all Usagi can really manage after the loss of Chibiusa yet again. She'll be alright, because she's rather used to Chibiusa leaving thanks to her frequent comings and goings back home, but she still cries, regardless.]
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[Even when it's just letters, his words have a quiet, soft feeling to them.
Helios had known when he could no longer feel her pure light, could reach her through their own special connection. Even though he had always known something like this could happen, that doesn't stop the sudden cold emptiness, a void where once was a warm, outstretched hand. He'll always treasure the moments he had with her, but...
...But now isn't the time for his own sorrows. He knows Usagi must also be suffering, so not long after the first message, another passes through.]
Where are you, if I may ask?
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[It's short, simple, Usagi isn't in much of a mood to wax poetically in her mind. She's in no real mood for anything that has to do with talking, honestly.]
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Really... He had been afraid to enter it, and even now his hand hesitates. But then he slowly opens the door to peer inside.]
Miss Usagi?
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Helios... hi. [She sniffles again and wipes her eyes.] Sorry, I'm... I should have met you downstairs.
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Treading with care, Helios makes his way over to Usagi and sits on the edge of the bed beside her.]
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At first he had intended to just be there as quiet support, but... In the end, he can't help but slowly reach out to take her hand into his.]
But even though this is difficult, just know that you will see her again. And just like how the pain of her leaving will never be easy, the joy of your reunion will be even greater than the last.
So it's okay to cry and grieve, for that is another way of expressing your love.
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But she grips him with one hand and the stuffed rabbit with the other.]
I've been crying for a while. [It hurts, yes, but this hurt is easier because it's something she's a little bit used to.] But you know, that means you can cry as well, if you need.
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Thank you... But I'll be all right. This is a fate I've long known would happen. I'm just happy to be able to spend a little more time with her.
[He lowers his head and closes his eyes, but the grip around her fingers tightens just a fraction, the warm sunlight that often follows him gone and clouded over.]
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But hopefully, when we both go back, you will get to spend as much time with her as you both want.
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Yes... I would like that very much. [He is willing to wait for near a millennia, for what is one more in his already long life? But this time will be a more difficult, he knows, even if he may be able to catch glimpses from afar.]
And you will be able to continue your life not only with Chibiusa, but with the prince as well.
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[That she wanted to see him on the Earth's surface more rather than serving with Elysian. He still is uncertain about whether it's possible, but...]
...I would like to see that as well.
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But that was never my true wish. And I know that that isn't Mamoru's either.
[She closed her eyes and leaned back a bit.] Both our greatest wish is to protect the earth, together, with everyone.
He was so adorable as a little boy, though.
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You both were. [A soft smile.] Forgive me, but I saw glimpses of that dream since I had used my powers to bring you to Elysion. [To save them from the curse as best he could.]
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[Even if it meant sacrificing himself to use those powers.]
And now I want to do the same for you here. [He covers Usagi's hand with his other, holding them close.] Miss Usagi... I know we haven't known each other for long, and you have the other girls to help you as well. But if there's anything I can do to help ease the pain in your heart, please let me know.
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Helios-kun...
Where did you learn to be so incredible, hmm?
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Perhaps living for so long and having to watch over everyone has a part in it.
[It's a small one, but it is a little joke he managed.]
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It's hard to remember sometimes you're so much older with such a baby face like yours.
[She lightly tapped him on the nose and then tilted her head, looking out the window over his shoulder and then back at him.]
Helios, could I ask you something?
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Anyway.]
Yes?
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[There's a soft, sad smile as he sits back a bit, recalling the events.]
No, I was not spared. When Saturn's Glaive dropped, everything—including the Earth, the Golden Kingdom, Elysion—was reset. However, I was reborn fairly early on to continue my role in protecting Elysion, and my memories were reborn with me. So I remember everything from before everything happened.
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She took a deep breath.]
I remember... more and more every year, every... [She made an idle, sweeping gesture.]
I'm sorry if I don't remember meeting you before then, Helios, though I'm not sure if I did. I know I met Kunzite before.
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